why can't i be allowed to be heartbrokened?


they say that time heals all pain
but i say its the heart that needs train
without so the soul won't be sane
then it'd just be back to the one word - pain

I'm throwing away friends whose words spill pain
a monster what i was told to be claim
fear of fear itself i am my bane
please just shut my eyes don't want to see my face

I didn't know how much you meant to me
till now..
I'm just..
tired now..


hate this side of me surfacing again
after all the effort i made to kept it away




now i'm a hypersensitive sucker overwhelmed with guilt.
with the feeling of being left out
face of a monster in front of my mirror


I am gonna fail my SAPD!







totally


i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself
i will keep my emotions to myself







so many feelings
lust
anger
jealousy
envy
fear


hate how a spark of any of em could flare me up
translate to vulnerability in my own language
keep them to myself i tell me i will
only till when i question myself i could?