Studies ARE indeed, getting more and more intensive nowadays and expectations are soaring high like nobody's business. My personal expection of myself gets relatively higher as well and I find that I am unable to cope with myself.


First major pressure group on me - World Of Warcraft
This game is a real killer as it is objective orientated and one achievement after another I was made to strive to be "stronger" while at the same time failing more at life. I would strongly advice anyone NOT to play this addictive game unless you wanna fail in life like I do.

Also, I feel so vulnerable right now. I am currently being bombarded by a series of emotions which made me somewhat ambivalent and now slightly impaired and getting worse. Starting to spout more nonsense in school and sudden spikes of mode swings when my thoughts just get out of hand.

To make things worse, I feel as if my feelings are getting more out of hand as proved by today's lesson. Teacher was pointing out my mistakes and reprimanding me on not paying attention(which I swear I did) and then kept asking him for help. I felt a surge of anger and really started to "hate" him, who happened to be one of my fav lecturers.




OH JUST WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!